Good Days

Ups

I’m in a complete state of bliss, I’m at work and I’m doing great, I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I’m loving it. Hopefully I can make it last this time. 

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Rollercoaster Ride

The first time I rode on a rollercoaster was the most fun, most terrifying time of my life. I remember getting in the seat and having that lap bar come down, my heart was racing. We started to pull out of the station and with every click up the hill my heart got higher and higher in my throat. Until finally we tilted over the edge. 

I threw my hands up and I screamed and I laughed, nothing will ever top that feeling, that rush. When the ride was over and my throat was scratchy; I realized I had forgotten all of that fear. 

I now know that life is a lot like that, we go up these hills that are torturous but once we get to the other side of that hill all of that worry was so worth it. 

There will be many ups and downs and probably a few loops that everyone will be thrown through, but just let go and ride. 

You’ll enjoy it a lot more. 

❤️

Good Days

SO READY

We have been together three years now and I love you more than I thought was possible. I am ready. Ready to finally let myself trust you one hundred percent. I will no longer dodge you asking if I’m ok, or forget to tell you about cancelling or making plans. I am ready to do everything in my power to make you feel as loved as you have me. 

I am ready. 

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Sleeping While I Wait

I sit here most nights, watch my shows and type on my phone, you sleep, and man are you beautiful. I see you now and you’re the only thing left to give me hope. I need you around me, and while I definitely love you it scares the living shit out of me. You mean more to me than even myself. I have made some huge mistakes, I know, but we’ve made it through it all and I am so grateful. I love you babe and I can’t wait for you to wake up.

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I deleted it

I deleted my story… it was dumb. I can’t write about my own life very well…. I thought it would help but now I’m just dreading on the bad things and I just sound whiny… Anyway, that wasn’t the point of the page.

I will be writing more, I really think it will help. Maybe I’ll start out with fiction, may be a bit easier for me.

Anyone have any writing tips?

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New Writings

I’m trying a new approach to the story of me, it might not be very good or interesting but I cant keep it all in my head anymore so I’m putting it all out there. As of right now I only have the very beginning on here but be patient more is to come. Check it out on my blog page let me know what you think good or bad. 

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Setting Straight

I just wanna set the record straight: I have a pretty great life. A wonderful boyfriend, an assortment of wonderful pets, we have a roof over our head and we rarely fight. I came exactly explain why I’m so upset but I am and I always have been, and I’m just scared I always will be. 

I wish I was depressed because something happened or because sethings not right but that’s not the reason. In fact, there isn’t a reason, I just am. 

I think the majority of my problem is me.

Im kind of a monumental fuck up. I swing my way into peoples lives and I smash everything around me. Im not some insane chick who just hates everyone or anything like that, I just try so hard to do everything right but the outcome is always way wrong. 
I just don’t want to live like this anymore.